It's May again...

So it’s May again…The month, which is brimming over with happy and sad moments. It has always been like that for me. The worst and the happiest instants in my life are following one another. One’s birth follows one’s death. One’s wedding, follows the others’ separation. It’s usual for my mental strength to be put to some tests by fate or God, if SHE exists out there. She… cause only a woman could allow such bad things to happen to men … as for me they usually appear before Easter, after Christmas, a week after my 31st B-day…The greatest day could be followed by the worst ever. It’s a common thing for my life to have a year or a month which is the worst & the best at the same time. Disappointment comes after a moment of clarity. I lose an old friend when I earned a new one. I’ve just felt a divine intervention, when the devil, feeling ignored, shows his wicked mind off. But maybe it’s just life. She’s a total biatch, you know that, you can feel that and you can’t change that fact.
There are days when you feel as if you’re a God’s elect and on the next you’re thoroughly abandoned and neglected. But if we don’t have our lows we won’t be able to appreciate our highs! When you haven’t felt the real life you’ll never be able to perceive the tiny moment of subtle happiness.